Saturday, January 30, 2010

Outside my zone.

So tonight I stepped outside of my relative zone of comfort to go into someone's house I don't really know very well to make a craft, which I'm not so great at making. It was fun, I would do it again and next time I might even talk to someone I don't know. The whole point of tonight was to meet some new people and talk to 'strangers' in a cozy environment and to make something fun. I did the make something fun part, but I didn't talk to strangers. I am so stuck in my own little and I mean little world that stepping out and putting myself out there is hard. So basically I failed myself tonight - I didn't do what I wanted to, but I did have a nice conversation with 2 awesome ladies that I already know. I just feel like I need a group of female friends that are not my sisters or my sister's friends. I need to make my own, I am a grown up - which I think actually makes it harded. Going into tonight I didn't quite imagine the clique feeling that I felt, but I was putting myself into their world and I didn't exactly make any effort to talk to them, so what can I expect. I've got to do better - be a better friend - be more approachable, more friendly, more extroverted! That's it! I enjoyed my evening and hope to do it again soon - but I'll do better! I hope!